The Future.

Where does it all begin? Where does it all end? I find myself starting 2012 not exactly sure what I want to do, full of decisions to make.

Firstly, I’m excited for my 21st. It’s on March 1st. I was given a four options on what to do for it, and have narrowed it down to two, which are just impossible to choose from. One, I head to Vegas in October, or two I head to New York in March. Each for a few days. New York might just be my favourite place in the World aside from London, and I’m desperate to get out there. However, Vegas is just… Vegas! I was out there at the age of 13 and would love to go back out as a legal 21 year old. I’m sure I don’t need to state just how much fun that would be. Either trip I chose would be with my folks. Vegas would be the more expensive option for me personally, but there’s also more time to save for it. I just genuinely haven’t got a clue what I want.

Another thing I’m excited for is the future of deadcloud. We’ve added two very talented cameramen to our team, and have some great ideas stacked up. It’s just a case of getting them started. Also for me, my computer recentley broke meaning that the deadcloud blog, the part of the team I’m mainly involved in, has come to a standstill. Once we get all systems go on all fronts, I genuinely believe we can really challenge at the top of the UK music website market. No shots, just a personal belief.

Musically, 2011 has been a great year in my opinion. There’s been some absolutely great projects, far too many to name, all I want to say here is thankyou to all the artists who make music, especially that which can be related to by the every day person. i.e Joe Budden. I couldn’t live without listening to music every single day of my life, and I hope 2012 continues to bring magical musical moments.

One thing that I can’t decide on whether I’m happy about is the fact I’m about to get started with real life work again. My job is seasonal, so I have been out of work for a few months and unable to find another job. It’s not the best job in the World, but I have met some great people through it and at times can have some good fun. However, as I said in a previous post, “working surrounded by friends is fantastic at times, terrible at others.” It can be hard and sometimes stressful work too. I think the idea of getting into work is exciting me, but the novelty may quickly ware off. And then again, I mean of course, who can say no to money!? It’ll be interesting to see how it goes, that’s for sure.

Something else that got mentioned to me just today infact, was the subject of University again. There was a Sports Journalism course that once interested me, that I was once again told today I should go for. It sure would be a great career, but I just don’t have the belief in my own writing abilities. I just tend to waffle. However, the idea actually got my attention and my thoughts, so maybe it is something I would like to do? Once again, I just don’t know what I want.

West Ham United. I don’t even know where to begin on this one. I’ve only missed two games so far this season, and plans to do many more yet. I couldn’t live without following my team all over the country. We’ve just made our first signing of the January transfer window, and it doesn’t really wet your appetite, just an American defender on loan. What we really need is a creative playmaker, someone who can really give us the goalscoring opportunities we need. There’s been a lot of talk of us signing a stirker, and whilst yes we could use one (Jordan Rhodes would be great), if we had that player to create better chances then I think we would see more from Sam Baldock and Carlton Cole. A fully fit Matty Taylor wouldn’t go a miss for the left wing either. And under no circumstances whatsoever can we let go of James Tomkins. He is our future. Can we get promoted automatically? I think we can, but I guarentee we’ll make it hard for ourselves. Or maybe that’s just wishful thinking, because I don’t think my heart could handle the playoffs for the 3rd time in my life. Anyways, down to the South Coast tomorrow for a trip to Fratton Park. My train leaves at 9aminlondon I belive, I look forward to it.

Another thing on my mind… hats off to whoever created the ‘Mine Games’ instrumental on Rick Ross’ latest mixtape. That instrumental just sounds magical to me.

Shouts to all my friends, especially the few who mean the World to me. I live for the nights that I can’t remember with the people that I won’t forget, word to Drake.

I’m sure I had more to say, but for now, I think I’m done. I had so many thoughts rattling around in my little head, I just had to air some out. Apologies for the ranting, I don’t even expect anyone to read this. I just needed to talk.

I end with a quote from one of my favourite songs of recent times, courtesty of Mac Miller.

“no matter where life takes me, find me with a smile, pursuit to be happy only laughing like a child. I never thought life would be this sweet, it got me cheesing from cheek to cheek. And I ain’t gunna wait for nothing cause that just ain’t my style. Life couldn’t get better, this gon’ be the best day everrrr.”

it’s just gone 9pminlondon…. goodbye.

NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY